Hypnotized

Laying in a comfortable bed, staring your ceiling without blinking feels like sleeping but your eyes were open. Wants to modify past and present but you can’t, thinking life would be better if I’m gone and life could be better if I choose good stuff to be done, but it’s too late. People choose their lives to lived, everything is in our hands, how we deal with people and on how we understand the world that were living.

 Asking why life is unfair, everything is unfair, all we wish for is to become happy, to love and to be loved not just from a man but from a family, a home. They build a shelter, but it feels like your not belong. You wanted to go up, but they are dragging you down. Everything you’ve done is a mess in their eyes, you are disgusting like a mud that they want to avoid. Your eyes were open, but you wanted to open it more to realize things, what’s the reason behind this dream that you kept on dreaming since you decided to go out in the womb of your mother. What’s the reason of living if you yourself doesn’t have any idea about the purpose of life. You were actually blind deep inside, it was dark, you are trying to light your torch one by one, but the strong wind of gossips and judgement blew the light. You start again to build the torch and light it, you are trying to be brave, but it was a lie, you keep on lying yourself that you are strong, but you were actually fragile like a doll. A brittle creature that can turned you into tiny fragments.

You’ve trusted many people with all of your heart and it is sacrificing your heart, you put it the center of their palms and you give them the power to crash it. They have the power broke your heart into a tiny pieces and they can stop you from breathing. 

Laying in the comfortable bed, staring your ceiling without blinking feels like sleeping, but your eyes were open and tears keep on falling because your ears reminds your mind and heart the words that can change you emotionally. You are hypnotized.

” You are floating in the deepest ocean carrying a tons of pain that your body wants to go down and be drowned, but you can’t because there’s a million reasons in life that pulling up you to lived.”

Pizza

Pizza is one of the people all time favorite. So, many people create many types of pizza for us. There’s Hawaiian Pizza, Sicilian Pizza, Chicago Pizza, Bagel Pizza and etc. I haven’t tasted many kinds of Pizza but I know that Pizza is my all time favorite. It makes me crave almost everyday but it’s kind of expensive so I eat a pizza once or twice in a month. First bite, taste like heaven. Soft crust, a lot of pizza sauce, a lot of ham and pineapple anywhere, with a lot lot of cheese, I think I will forget my name. One box of Pizza can make my mouth and tummy satisfy. I remember, when we make a Pizza in our house, then I ate all the whole Pizza it is really satisfying and a reliever of everythings that bothered you. 

Song of our Life

Sharing your favorite song and the reason why you like and why you love that song in the class is an opportunity. I sing in front of them and even I wasn’t able to sing the song in a really good voice but then I was able to share its message and my reason why I choose that song. 

I heard a lot of songs from them talks about God, family, being strong, believing, dreams, journey, friends and other things that is important. While I was singing I know  they were confused about my choosen song and it doesn’t matter because I know what I am singing and I know what it means. 

The song that I choose is about being ourself, it’s about how we deal in ourself. Put your make up on to be looked pretty, get our nails done, make our body slim, we curl or straight our hair and we go shopping to buy attractive clothes and bags, so they liked you. We actually do a lot of things everyday just to be suitable on a group that we want to belong. We change something about ourself just to be belong, we want them to impress about you and treat you as one of them. We change ourself just to be acceptable in their eyes, but the question is do they really like you? 

We are born in this world not perfect but special, we have the character that and the appearance that the other people doesn’t have. We can do things that the other people can’t do and that makes us special. If you really want to belong on a group that you really wanted then go, but don’t change anything about you to be acceptable to them. You actually just have to get up and accept who you are and what you are. You don’t have to try so hard to be perfect in their eyes, people will accept you if they really want to. If you want to do those things, will do it for yourself, do it because it makes you happy and at ease. Don’t be a someone that you really not, just face the world with confident and a smile because you know that no matter what who you are and in what family you came from you still have a purpose in this world. In this world their’s a lot of people will not accept you but God will.